"Goodbyes are hard, but the future is exciting"

 Learning to accept goodbyes is something that is very hard for each and every one of us. But, even though it is hard, we must still learn to accept it and look to the brighter side of the future.

 For 10 months, I have been walking through the same faces every day, and to think that in a span of a few weeks, we will all be separated is pretty heartbreaking to me. But even though I still look forward to the future.

 To my Markov, it was truly a great chance to meet each and every one of you. For most of my life, I have craved the presence of a true family. And who would've thought that I would find them through you—people who were once just strangers to me? Markov, you guys are truly amazing people. I love how you guys support each other, show that you truly care and will always be there for them, and how there is no "I" in Markov. I love how you guys find a way to smile even in hard times. Although, at times, it would feel as if there was a gap in between each and every one of us, I guess that's just how it is. Not every time we have to be lovey-dovey.

 It may be hard to accept that we all must go our separate ways, but I guess that's just how life goes. But even though we will not be together anymore, I just want you guys to know that I will continue supporting you in the steps that you take. And I will pray that each and every one of you finds success and happiness in your next journeys. You guys will always have a special place in my heart. Goodbye, Markov.

"How do you see yourself 10 years from now?"

    Such a simple and easy question to answer, yet somehow my mind just goes blank every time someone asks me that. All my life, from kindergarten to now, it has always been the same exact question, and I have always had the same exact answer. "Oh, 10 years from now, I think I would be an engineer; I would be successful and have already finished my studies," but as I have grown older with a much deeper understanding of the world, it's not that easy to say.

    To be honest, as of now, I think my future is uncertain. I don't really see myself living the life that I once wanted to have. I don't even see myself being alive 10 years from now. I'm not saying that I'll be dead in the future; what I mean is that there is just a chance that I may not survive this lifetime. Well, it's not that crazy of a statement, as I once planned to commit suicide at 50 just because I couldn't imagine myself living until 80, when I have to wear adult diapers, and I asked my caretaker to wipe my shit off. haha.

    But what kind of life would I really want to live in the future? Well, I used to want to be rich—someone who could buy the things that they wanted without saving for them, someone who would provide for my parents and siblings with anything and everything that they wanted. And at one point, I even wanted to be the "tito" who would spoil their nieces, nephews, titas, and titos, and especially my grandparents, giving them money and gifts for Christmas. But now I just want to live a peaceful and simple life. Don't get me wrong, though; I still want to spoil them in the future, but maybe I'll just prioritize myself a little bit more.

    For now, maybe I am still uncertain of what I want to become in the future, but there's no need to rush; eventually I'll figure it out, just like I always would. There's no need to worry, for I know that I can do anything I want if I try and really want to.